SOMETHING

There's something so encouraging about knowing that someone, anyone can relate to the way you're feeling or a way you've felt. This song is not new or anything but I absolutely adore it. Besides the fact that it's just a well constructed song, its inspiring and confirming. I appreciate artists who articulate my feelings to me as if they know MY life! Big K.R.I.T. is finally getting the recognition he deserves but his older music is not to be slept on either.
Real Shit for Real People. Get into it. 
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One more for the road...

This'll be my last post for the night. I have a lot more to share but my eyelids are becoming extreeemely heavy. This was written a few weeks ago:

Scene.

10 said where you been and I replied in my feelings

Can't remember the last time I felt like this

Unfortunately, this time it isn’t love its attachment

When did I become so weak that I needed a man to validate me?

When did it matter that you igged my questions and left my bbms with that lingering ‘r’

Indicating that you cared enough to see what I said but didn’t give half a damn enough to reply

and when did it matter that I so desperately needed friends?

or someone to talk to at every single minute of the day?

When did I become this girl?

This “whatchu dewin?” “You not my friend no more?” “Why didn’t you answer my call?” girl

Girl….I wish I could tell you.

Quite honestly I don’t even know when you transitioned. It was that smooth.

You bend rules, you make moves and undetectably sneak into hearts…but unh unh You don’t like when that happens to you. Singing that “How did you get here? Nobody’s sposed to be here!!!” tune

Shoot! Nigga you musta had me fooled cuz those tools don’t work here….in fact Love…he ont live here anymore. So heres the door kind sir.

Thanks for trying to show me what real love feels like

And what its like to be treated like the queen that I am but quite honestly I aint ready yet.

But I wont forget

Our time won't allow me to let another man treat me less than my worth

I know its precious, you were just so unexpected

On and on we seem to go but we never know what we’ve got til its gone

And on and on  this cipher keeps movin like a rollin stone

Im not gon go on much longer but this is proof that I still hunger…but I don’t know what I want

Like a scratch I cant itch

A thirst I cant quench

Thank you kind sir for treating me swell, Thanks for all the stories you wanted to tell, the secrets you wanted to share, the soul wanted to bear…I apologize for my youth and that I closed my ears

Im sure it’ll be worth some woman’s while

And unfortunately, in love Im still a child

Not yet ready for what I thought I was.

Funny how I thought I was the grown up…Oh how quickly the tables turn…and all the lessons we learned.

Consider your role in my life seasonal yet necessary.

I’ll be on my way now, still hoping for the best.

Imma close this chapter door behind me and exit stage left

End scene.

Random stuff written in 2010

A million emotions
floating like molecules
in a vast ocean
Faith and perseverance
Trying hard to fight hopelessness
Holding on to it only because you know HE wrote it
Whats written comes to life
And its worth the tears you've cried
and the pain felt inside
The rejection and the lies
Without dark, theres no light
Without shame, theres no pride



If I could immerse myself in you, I'd do so
If there was a show I'd produce, it'd be the Everybody Loves You show
If true love is outta this world, then ours in on Pluto
If I had one wish, it'd be for world peace...
You'd be my number two though

DCPMOMD written 3/13/10

You're like a gift to me 

Every time I see your face I have an epiphany

Eyes dreamy

Voice smooth like a symphony

It temptest me

to enjoy your ecstasy

Indulge in such pleasantry

What we share cant be put into words

Precious moments will never be unearthed

If it aint you 

or me

Im caught up

No pretendin

No actin

After round two, a third time to go at it

Peach so juicy you can take a bath in it 

Reach so deep dont know how to act wit it

Dark chocolate prince

Man of my dreams

With you every day is Christmas

Before you every day was Halloween 

(a little graphic, I know but thats as far as it'll go here. Scouts Honor :) 

Great Adventures written 3/12/10

On love's rollercoaster
20 foot drop off
Everything beautiful
Til some bullshit pop off
Thrill Ride
Weathering the whiplash
Just to be by your side
All the twists and turns I've gone through
Proves to me how much I love you
I'm talking topsy turvy and some Minderaser shit
It's a Small World indeed
but this don't deserve a Tea Cup sip

Is this thing on??

You all will not BUHlieve how long it took for me to finally start this blog THEN how long it took for me to set it up and I STILL don't think I know how to work it completely. Lol. 

Anyway...

I write from time to time and I figured this would be a good way to get my thoughts out. I currently have random writings in my Big Red Notebook :) or saved onto my PC. I think I'd like to share them though. Others might be able to relate or offer advice, who knows?

Well for now I'm gonna post a lot of stuff that's been previously written, in no particular order.

I hope eventually someone reads this and I'm not wasting my time hehe 

Well Enjoy for now

later days,

Amber Jeanine