I don’t want to do anything but understand and I know it’s not MY plan but can’t I at least peek at the blueprint?
Consciousness lends itself to a certain sensitivity. And while I don’t claim to be such, I feel my feelings right now.
Not directly connected but certainly affected.
When my heart aches, my mind goes to work because it’s not yet fit enough to grasp such concepts. The longer I’m ignorant to what’s really going on, the more frightened I become.
Shuffling through my theories; I wonder if I’ll discover the truth.
The angel of death keeps coming closer and closer, each time grabbing precious jewels, good young people. I should find comfort in knowing that these newly made angels have changed many lives while living theirs to the fullest, creating warm memories for friends and legacies for themselves. Clearly fulfilling their duties to this world and seemingly “ready” to depart from it. Although it may seem that way to us, God calls no man before his time. HE is not cruel or spiteful; but all knowing. Almighty.
I’ve never questioned death and I still am not. I will admit, though, that I am afraid. Fearful because I associate with the same type of people God has called home in recent months. All of my friends are living positively impacting lives…scholars, mentors, members of distinguished organizations, charitable and some even wise beyond their years. I can’t help but to think about the possibility of one of my friends being taken away from me. I have no idea how I would cope with such a tragedy.
The reality is: no matter how hard I try, I’ll never be able to fully understand death. It’s and inevitable part of life that we don’t have to like but we do have to accept. If we’re smart, we’ll take heed from our angel friends and live our lives fully and unselfishly. We can leave this earth at any minute. How do you want to be remembered?
