One more for the road...

This'll be my last post for the night. I have a lot more to share but my eyelids are becoming extreeemely heavy. This was written a few weeks ago:

Scene.

10 said where you been and I replied in my feelings

Can't remember the last time I felt like this

Unfortunately, this time it isn’t love its attachment

When did I become so weak that I needed a man to validate me?

When did it matter that you igged my questions and left my bbms with that lingering ‘r’

Indicating that you cared enough to see what I said but didn’t give half a damn enough to reply

and when did it matter that I so desperately needed friends?

or someone to talk to at every single minute of the day?

When did I become this girl?

This “whatchu dewin?” “You not my friend no more?” “Why didn’t you answer my call?” girl

Girl….I wish I could tell you.

Quite honestly I don’t even know when you transitioned. It was that smooth.

You bend rules, you make moves and undetectably sneak into hearts…but unh unh You don’t like when that happens to you. Singing that “How did you get here? Nobody’s sposed to be here!!!” tune

Shoot! Nigga you musta had me fooled cuz those tools don’t work here….in fact Love…he ont live here anymore. So heres the door kind sir.

Thanks for trying to show me what real love feels like

And what its like to be treated like the queen that I am but quite honestly I aint ready yet.

But I wont forget

Our time won't allow me to let another man treat me less than my worth

I know its precious, you were just so unexpected

On and on we seem to go but we never know what we’ve got til its gone

And on and on  this cipher keeps movin like a rollin stone

Im not gon go on much longer but this is proof that I still hunger…but I don’t know what I want

Like a scratch I cant itch

A thirst I cant quench

Thank you kind sir for treating me swell, Thanks for all the stories you wanted to tell, the secrets you wanted to share, the soul wanted to bear…I apologize for my youth and that I closed my ears

Im sure it’ll be worth some woman’s while

And unfortunately, in love Im still a child

Not yet ready for what I thought I was.

Funny how I thought I was the grown up…Oh how quickly the tables turn…and all the lessons we learned.

Consider your role in my life seasonal yet necessary.

I’ll be on my way now, still hoping for the best.

Imma close this chapter door behind me and exit stage left

End scene.